Well, we resumed drinking last night. I drank a few beers while playing poker. I didn't count how many, but it was enough after a few months off to give me a hangover. I had a mild headache all day, then rushed in late to a dress rehearsal for a choral performance tonight. At the conclusion of the first piece we sang I suddenly noticed that I was feeling more like myself. I was able to concentrate and enjoy the evening.
I felt so good that by the time I got home after the singing I was ready for another beer. I was thirsty and feeling celebratory. It was late, however, and it would mean one less to enjoy over the rest of the week. But I still wanted it. In previous times, the fact that I wanted it would have won out over all the other arguments. Now, however, I know I can manage, if not control my desires. I saved it for another night.
Here's my motto for the new year: "Informed intemperance"
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